In this journey I am on I keep trying
I keep trying to sit in the moment
Like hearing a bird that I know is beautiful
But I can never seem to see it
It’s there I hear it again and again and yet
it’s not there it flies away gone from me
The flight attendant asks if I want something
What I want is to not be on this plane this seat
Wherever I am going I don’t want to be here
A criticism dumped on like mud by a friend
It covers me from head to toe with black
Dripping with hurt and burning me inside
In Yoga class everyone is doing a headstand
I am in child’s pose breathing like a pug
Fasting for three days and thinking why am I
Yet knowing all of this will pass it will
like hot water burns the skin tingles nerves
It will pass will end and will happen again
I sit with the moment the unwanted blanket
I tell myself feel it and react in a positive way
It’s so hard to not give in to not get frustrated
Life is feeling life is uncomfortable
life is choice and I could choose to
Tell the flight attendant thank you I am good
Tell my friend that I appreciate the mud
Tell myself try the headstand again breathe
Tell myself wanting less is living more for
When it’s uncomfortable it hurts the most
I remember it means I am alive in this world
That I have a place it is right here right now
RIGHT NOW is life whether it hurts or not
